I dont understand why humans act this way?Do all humans act like this huh, tell me.We hold grudges even when we dont know a thing about that thing.Yea but the truth is, I did mess up.Maybe it was telling me something but maybe not.You said it yourself right? When it comes to love, everyone is selfish. So yes I am.
But then part of me was trying to please you the whole time, i guess i failed real bad huh?I can say that I'm fine with how are things now, I can say that I dont careBut the fact is I really do care. And yeah, i break my promise.But at least do not blame it all on me. Because I'm human and i do things for myself cause im selfish yes.Friendship and sisterhood never did mean that much to you, if you could throw me away like this.Yeaaaa, i get it. You hate me for what I did. You can hate me. Who said not to let it become our stepping stone?
Yea you have feelings that I once ignored. Because I have my own feelings too.I cant force myself to pretend that i dont know him. I cant not reply when he's my brother, I cant not say hi because he's my brother. I know, you think that I did it because i love him right? The fact is, i realised its not him. Yea I might have feelings for him before but not now. I realised too that he caused me many things. But in the end, you also broke ur promise right? You told most of the people about me. Yea you can say that you did that out of anger and plus i broke my promise. What I'm trying to say is, I never did wanted to take him away from you. Maybe you thought so or maybe you felt threatened. Im sorry for that reason. But I'm not sorry that sometimes i do text him, because he's my brother and long before you two happened, we were already that close.I am devastated that you ignored what i had to say and just assumed everything on ur own cause.We both got used to it. I'm not expecting you to ever forgive me, but at least after reading this, you'll understand.
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