Life goes on, i guess? Well, at least i want it to be.

 

Still got tonight - Matthew Morrison

If you're not home, I'll sit here on your doorstep
Button up my coat and wait
We'll go upstairs close the curtains and we're all set
to pick up where we left again
There's question marks hangin' over us
But we won't give the time of day, oh
'Cause all we got is these few stolen seconds
And we can't let them go to waste

The stars collide
We come back to life
We come back to life
The sparks will fly
One look in your eyes
My heart's open wide
I know time's running out now
But we'll hold back the sun somehow
See the sky?
We've still got tonight
We've still got tonight

Come 9am
I'm packing every suitcase
Leave you in your bed so warm
I'll do my best not to wake you but it's useless
Can't tiptoe 'round this no more, oh
It's gonna get much harder
Before it gets better baby and that's for sure, mmm
Just say you'll wait for my footsteps on the staircase
And I will walk back through this door

The stars collide
We come back to life
We come back to life
The sparks will fly
One look in your eyes
My heart's open wide
I know time's running out now
But we'll hold back the sun somehow
See the sky?
We've still got tonight
We've still got tonight

So keep your eyes open
There's no time to close them
Just hold on
So tight now
We still got tonight
(We've still got tonight)
(We've still got tonight)

If all we got is these few stolen seconds
We can't let em go to waste

The stars collide
We come back to life
We come back to life
The sparks will fly
One look in your eyes
My heart's open wide
I know time's running out now
But we'll hold back the sun somehow
See the sky?
We've still got tonight
We've still got tonight

We've still got tonight
We've still got tonight

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Life as we know it. It's still a mystery in all our cases. Yes, typing admitting but denying in my heart & on my mind, I do miss my past. I miss it without a doubt. When I see babies/kids, I'm talking to them in my heart, saying, *hi young ones, you guys still got your whole life ahead of you, don't you guys ever wish to grow up faster because you'll really regret it. You'll miss the days when you didn't have to deal with your clothes, your hair, your shoes, your feelings, your life. Live each day as if it's your last alright? Make that day the longest even though it's short as hell. As I watched them running up & down a clinic or wearing a bee costume walking in a diner, I just miss those days when life just wasn't a climb, when I could really have sweet dreams, when I can tie my hair in any way even though it's fugly (fucking ugly) just because I'm a kid & that everyone who stared at me would react the same, *Awwwwww, she's adorable! Now all has changed. I am now 15, going to be 16. Almost 16years I have been breathing, taking in everything the world has pushed down my throat, looking around & wondering what if, as always. Truth is, in reality, there are no what if's. What if's only exists in the past when we are too coward to face life. I thought I wasn't/ couldn't never be strong enought to face every single challenge that I had faced. To my surprise, I was strong, but in my own way. I faced it differently, in a way that even God wouldn't understand why, but that's me. I fight for my rights, I'll fight for it as long as it's mine to win. I'll win as long as I try. :) I'll stop here.